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08:48 am
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im the coolest cat EVAR
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I<3 PAIN KILLERZZZZZZZZorz.cx (i win)
snagged this off of kristins journal...good shit
Current Mood:  fucked up
Current Music: watching sports center
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01:55 pm
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pics
Current Mood:  amused
Current Music: Hatebreed - Puritain
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12:13 pm
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ouch
ok....the hike was great.......until i sprained my ankle :(
i got some great pictures n whatnot but i didnt get to enjoy it as much as i wanted to because i was in some pretty serious pain for the last half of the hike (about 3.5 hours). i went to the ER today and they told me to stay off of it for 2 days and im on crutches for at least 2 weeks. i have an appointment with the orthopedic surgeon on tusday morning to see if they have to go in and repair any of the ligament damage (they said it looked pretty bad from what they saw today). my ankle is swollen to about the size of a softball and the rest of my foot and lower leg is swollen as well. the outer part of my angle is completely red and blue from all the bleeding caused by the torn ligaments. hopefully theres nothing too serious wrong with it...time will tell
Current Mood:  ouch
Current Music: circle takes the square - crater to cough in
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11:18 pm
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TOUCHDOWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i have made contact and everything will be worked out
im crying because im happy and it feels damn good. i just got off the phone with sara and she forgave me and were going to get this shit straightened out. now i can hit the trails tomorrow with a smile on my face instead of tears on my cheek
OLD RAG MOUNTAIN.....HERE I COME }8)
Current Mood: elated
Current Music: Bob Dylan - Mr Tambourine Man
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04:23 pm
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STOP RAINING!!!
im ready to go camping/hiking
ive got everything sorted out for it n im excited now. im going to climb old rag mountain right outside of luray, va n probably camp on the backside of it. i cant wait. ive needed this for a good while. i miss sara so much. ive tried to call her a few times and she wont answer. i talked to her online yesterday and she said shed try to talk to me when she could...i just want this shit to end and just go back to the way it was. if i could roll back time i would have never told her how i felt n just kept it bottled up...stuff is usually easier that way anyways. i cant wait to get home next weekend also. tracy might go to music midtown with me if i cant get everything cleared up with sara and bring her down. also.....july 1st needs to get here right fucking now....i want to smash someones fucking face in.
still going crazy but i have a better grip on myself today so i guess im doing a bit better.
the mountains will be just what i need this weekend :)
Current Mood:  not really sure
Current Music: As I Lay Dying - Forever
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09:46 pm
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back to square one
ok....so now im right back where i was again last year.....drunk and trying to salvage a friendship. i need to get out of this god damn state for a weekend (preferrably with her so we can get this show worked out). more to come when my computer screen doesnt hurt my eyes so much
Current Mood:  drunk, tired, and crushed
Current Music: converge - for you (im on a converge kick)
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09:49 pm
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holy shit
its been a long time since ive been on here....alot has happened....ill just say fuck the last year n get right to my latest dilemma...sara
im in love...shes not. i cant make her love me and i dont want to. i just told her i cant be her friend today because i dont want to hurt myself or her and she didnt take it well at all (i didnt think she would). ive never had a friend like her in my life and now its all erased at the drop of a hat. i feel a bit guilty about having to do this but i didnt want to have any ill memories about our relationship. i read her blog on myspace (i deleted my account this morning finally!) and was a bit disturbed about the fact that she thinks that i wanted sex out of this exchange. the woman is gorgeous and that is a part of love no doubt but all i really wanted was a companion that would love me the way i love her...no more no less. oddly enough this is pretty much right at a year after all the shit with me n sam so now may is hell month for me....im staying away from women during the month of may (i know its june but this has been snowballing for a few weeks). i was able to talk to cassie about all this which is good because i know that i can come to someone else with my problems now. im hurting pretty bad right now and im trying to find ways to deal with that on the inside but i know im in for a breakdown within the next couple of days....its going to take a bit for this to set in. after the falling out with me n sam it took about 4 days for it to completely hit me n thats when i lost it n shit got really bad for me. i feel a summer of alcoholism and hate coming on and honestly im welcoming it with open arms...i havent been my normal cynical self lately so seems as though i need to pick up the slack a bit. i see a spontaneous tattoo coming soon.
well...with that being said....hopefully you look at this (im sure ill have a bit more to say on here as it comes to my mind)
i love you with all my heart and ill never forget you and its a bit hard to describe what this is doing to me. please, no hard feelings and just understand why i had to do what i did.
Current Mood:  depressed
Current Music: Converge - Unloved and Weeded Out
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11:06 pm
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last one for a while
im about to pack my computer up here before i go to sleep. hopefully theyll come get my shit tomorrow early like they did today. nothin much else goin on except for trying to get all of my outprocessing done at once. yup...thats about all...see most of you in a couple of weeks :D
peeeese
Current Mood:  dont really know
Current Music: fugazi
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07:42 pm
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well well...
so yeah...i quit using IE n amazingly i can get back on here...
alot has happened since i last posted on here...IM GOING CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha...im actually doin pretty well. i leave korea in 13 days!!!!! i cant wait. i get into atl on the 1st n im going to see atreyu, bleeding through, everytime i die, n dimmu borgir that nite. then on the 2nd im going to see teebee play at the mark. on the 3rd im goin to greenville n catchin up with some old friends (getting drunk). on the 4th im goin to see clemson play wake forest, then goin back to atl to see chris interspective play at lenny's, then were havin an after party at rons place. theeeeeeeeen on the 5th im goin to get a couple of tattoos n were having a labor day/my liberation party at rons place. basicly im gonna be drunk for the first 5 days of my leave :D i havent spoken to ... her ... in about 3 months. i miss her to death n think about her everyday but ive gotten over it for the most part...i think. we had a basewide beer drinking competition last weekend n i almost won. i was up to 22 beers at lunchtime but i puked n passed out at about 2pm. i slept for 4 hours n still managed to come in 4th out of about 70 people after drinking 27 beers. the winner only drank 32...fucker :x it was fun though...our team got jerseys made. so anyways...back to finishing with my packing...ta ta
Current Mood:  horny
Current Music: The Germs - Get A Grip
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10:07 pm
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im plastered
yeah...thats about all......yeah
Current Mood: tanked
Current Music: black flag
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07:56 pm
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i need alcohol
so yeah...i need alcohol. it was a pretty long day @ work. im prolly gonna be diggin in some soju tonite to be honest. get drunk n pass the fuck out...sounds like a plan :D
b0h to alcoholism w0000t!
Current Mood: blank
Current Music: dom live kiss fm 30 may 04
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08:48 pm
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boooooooom
so yeah...ive been listening to hardcore all day...cooking...doing laundry. its been a wonderful day. i have to go back to work tomorrow which will be GREAT!!! HA! i need to find someone that i can really relate to here NOW!!! preferably of the female type. all i hang out with here i guys. me n chris have alot in common...both dnb dj's, come from the punk scene, shit like that. i want someone like that...but female. hopefully i can find someone or ones to hang out with in VA. life sucks without at least one other person around n im not one to run with "the pack". i dont think im quite cool enough for that type of stuff. so yeah...i burned my dashboard confessional cd today with a certain someone in mind. i did this while listening to black flag...that made it feel alot better. the more i dwell on this shit i go back to what i first felt...anger...I LOVE IT :D for some reason i like being angry...i dont really understand it. sadness fucks me all up but anger i like some weird form of happiness for me. hahaha...i must sound like a fucking psyco right now. oh well...wouldnt be the first time.
LIFES A BITCH THEN YA DIE
THATS WHY WE GET HIGH
YA NEVER KNOW WHEN YA GONNA GO \m/ -_0 \m/
Current Mood: drunk again
Current Music: all the olde school hardcore i can find
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02:43 pm
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b0h
im am sooooooo hungover. last nite was pretty fun. a bunch of us just got really trashed n listened to punk all nite long. i was really fucked up :D a case of mickeys (or anything for that matter) will do that to you. I finally got my copy of DMG...OH MY FUCKING GOD!!!!! I LOVE THIS CD SOOOOOO MUCH! it makes me wanna kill people. i think im gonna go cook some burgers later. need some meat. so yeah....
Current Mood:  hungry
Current Music: Dieselboy - Dungeon Master's Guide
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12:30 am
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IM FUCKING PLASTERED
I JUST DRANK A WHOLE CASE OF MICKEYS N I WAS MORE.....MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORE!!!!!!
SO YEAH..THERE I WAS...BALLS DEEP IN THIS DUDES ASS. I WAS GONNA BE NICE N GIVE HIM A REACH AROUND N ILL BE DAMNED IF THE FUCKER DIDNT HAVE A HARD ON. SO I KICKED HIM OFF OF ME...YA FAGGOT.
PRETTY LAZY DAY. THERES A TYPHOON MOVING IN AS I SPEAK...ERRRR...TYPE. OUR SMOKE PIT DOWNSTAIRS IS FLOODING. I HATE HIPOCRITS. I ACTUALLY JUST THOUGHT ABOUT THAT. TELL ME I CANT SMOKE IN MY ROOM CUZZ IT MAKES YOU COUGH N THEN YOU TURN AROUND N SMOKE IN MY ROOM A DAY LATER...FUCK YOU. WASTE OF MY TIME I TELL YA! FUCK IT. I NEED TO GET HOME...I NEED MORE ANGER IN MY LIFE. WELL...ANGRY MUSIC AT LEAST. ENDA GAVE ME PROPS FOR MY MIX TODAY WHICH MADE ME FEEL REALLY GOOD. IM WAITING ON NEW RECORDS TO GET IN SO I CAN DO ANTOHER ONE. IT WILL HAVE THE 20/20 REMIX N SOULSNATHER ON IT! "WHY?" YOU ASK?????.......BECAUSE...
IVE COME FOR YOUR SOULS!!!!!
FUCK OFF
Current Mood: PLASTERED
Current Music: MINOR THREAT
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05:53 am
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FUCK...
THE FIRE ALARMS!!!!!
Current Mood:  irate
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08:51 pm
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requiem for a dream
i just watched that movie for the first time...WOW...JUST WOW!!! not really sure what to think of it. its an awesome movie but a bit freaky at the same time. its very rare that you see a movie where everyone loses. damn...
Current Mood: cynical
Current Music: nothing
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06:49 pm
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hmmmm
i dont know...do you?
sometimes i wonder about that whole "everything happens for a reason thing". actually that was the focus of my meditations today. i went n ran a couple of miles n came back n just sat on the floor, listened to some downtempo, n thought about shit. i need a reset real bad. i had gotten one when i went home...i was good to go. everytime i have something good happen its followed by something that takes me right back whre i was. dont really understand that but i guess thats what im facing in my life. getting through the strife so i can look forward to the few good times. today was pretty mellow. kinda nice. im prolly gonna go get some beers later n chill out for the rest of the nite. got some laundry done a lil while ago. damn i cant wait to get to VA. ill have my own place n just be able to keep to myself n not have to worry about people bothering me when i feel like being alone. i like people n all (well...some of them) but im a loner at heart n many just dont understand that...blah. theres a 10 mile run in october in washington dc thats sponsored by the army n im gonna try n get back in shape n run it. yeah...mass confusion in the good ol head these days. but i guess thats the way it is ;)
b0h to you
Current Mood: calm
Current Music: John Totti - Feel it Like Braille
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07:47 pm
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something or another
what up kiddies
exercise over...TIME TO DRINKIE. work has been boring to say the least. we had a moment of insanity last nite on the 404 message board (for those who dont know www.404audio.com/forum GO THERE!!!!!) everyone was drunk from the nite before n i was currently drunk at the time...it was fun. the most that forum has made me laugh ever!!! becky is know known as crap bag n im h:ellraiza (formerly rons daddy) i know...im a geek...fork it. ive been putting my evol intent stein to good use...love it :D sorry jimmy but your stein is being retired to my bookcase. i just finished the great shark hunt...again (4th time now) n im starting on the rum diaries for the 2nd time (im a hunter thompson freak) i sat there n watched the reagan funeral today n got a lil emotional about it. not that i agree with his policies...but like i said before...that man was a born leader...something were running really short on right now. when i day mrs reagan cry at the end it reminded me of my grandmother @ my grandfathers funeral. i was a basket case the whole time, but my grandmother (also named nancy) was a fucking trooper all the way to the end. it made me realize how much petty bullshit gets in the way of reality n that people need to pay attention to what they have n not take it for granted *ahem* i took my grandfather for granted n now that hes gone i realize what a great man he was. no regrets or anything...just kinda wish i woulda spent more time with him!!! im about to start compiling tracks for a new mix probably next week (after my shipment gets in) i got a new technics 1210 mkII last month n mixing has come SOOOOOOO much easier after getting that! im looking forward to see how much i can improve from last months mix now. last months mix was done on pure emotion and adrenaline though...i guess i need to get myself pumped up about this bullshit again somehow. hey you (yeah you)...if you see this...email me something mean...youre helping me by doing that (hahaha). well...i think imma listen to some beats for a bit...drink the guinness that warms the heart n hit the sack. on monday imma get my outprocessing rolling :D :D :D oh how i cant wait to leave this place!!!!!
Current Mood: in a pretty good mood today
Current Music: Tech Itch Live @ Hardware Nov 2003 \m/ O_O \m/
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12:43 pm
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being hurt sucks
my foot hurts like hell. i hobbled over to the post office yesterday only for them to be closed. RWAR!!! i got a roommate 2 days ago. he actually seems really cool so hopefully he wont be like my last 2. ive been doing alot of thinking lateley but have been figuring out nothing...kinda frustrating. i still want to call her...REALLY BAD! i miss that woman so much. bah. the doc gave me painkillers for my foot n ive been pretty fucked up for the past day :D its been fun to say the least. ive only got a days worth left as i have to go to work tomorrow. ive got a desk job so i wont be on it at all. i need food
bohdizzynizzle
yeah...that rocks or something huh?
Current Mood: indifferent
Current Music: Grateful Dead Live Shoreline 91
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12:36 pm
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ouch
well...i have a hairline fracture in a bone on the top of my foot right next to my ankle. good drugs :D ive got it wrapped so tight i cant move it so thats good...b0h. im bout to crutch myself over to the post office n send out a couple of packages. SING TO ME JERRY :D dead is good. this is the same set i was listenin to the other day when i got all upset...im happy now though. as happy as i can be at least. i just talked to carolyn, a friend from high school, for the first time in about 2 years earlier today. that was kinda cool. im gonna sell a bunch of records when i get home. ive probably got about 100 records (maybe more) that ill never play again that someone else could put to good use. i got my orders yesterday so i can start outprocessing already which is awesome...wont have to do it all at the last minute. now all i need is my port call so i can buy a plane ticket from seattle to atlanta. i think im gonna stop in seattle for a day so i can see me cousin paige...and so i can get absolutely smashed :D im so amped about coming home. im gonna blow steam out of my head like a fucking kettle. good shit. well...i need to cook...or something.
b0h to percoset :x
Current Mood:  fucked up
Current Music: Grateful Dead live @ Cornell U. 1977
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